Judgemental.

I find it so amusing that people can so easily point their dirty fingers at you before realizing that it's such a hypocritical action of their own. Or the fact that their definition of a word can be so completely opposite of yours, but they're too close-minded to realize it, and keep their mouths & worthless opinions shut. They waste those seconds envisioning the way they can insult you best, hoping to be the cause of your downfall. The worst part is that they can be, and WILL be... but only if you let them. I absolutely refuse, because only I will be the cause of my downfall. I don't care what people have to say about me anymore, because either way, I'll do what I want. And I'll do what's best for me, and only me, in the end. Don't tell me what I'm feeling; I promise you that I can comprehend my heart. Don't tell me what I'm thinking; I promise you that I understand my rambling, chaotic thoughts that consume my mind. But most above all, don't tell me who I am or where I'm going, because I am the only person that truly knows this, and you're an absurd idiot if you think you know me better than I do.

I know I've made terrible mistakes and that I've hurt people in my past, and that I will continue to make these terrible mistakes and hurt more people in the future. But at least I'm somewhat intelligent to accept this, and not judge other people for it. We are all human, and no one is smarter than the other when it comes to life. Albert Einstein couldn't even tell you why we're here if he tried. But that's what makes this all so worth-while. I just wish people could open up their ignorant eyes to see the true beauty that's around them, and focus on bettering their own lives rather than wasting minutes in their only life by telling other people how to live theirs.

Sometimes all I need is

This.


I'm going to miss my swim family dearly. They're the only reasons I swim these days anyways. Until next season, I guess.

"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.

Because I know you are. You aren't truly happy, and you won't find anyone else for a while who felt the way I did about you. You're too ignorant to realize that, though. And I can honestly say that I am done with you. Completely and fully. I don't have much to say other than good-bye. And hello to a whole new and different person.

"I am heaven sent; don't you dare forget."

Team-up Thursday: Time/Clock.

So this week's Team-Up could either be of a certain time, or of just a clock. And surprisingly, being the best friends that we are, Marina and I both did time; and the same time at that. I really loved Marina's, but I just love all of her photos.
Her's on top, mine on bottom:

Team-up Thursday: Looking Up/Down.

Today's week was hard to come up with in a way. So we decided to make it somewhat broad, and make it "Looking Up or Down" from our stance. Without knowing, both of us did opposites. My picture was from my upward looking point of view from a wonderful TP job (Thank you guys!) in my tree, and Marina's was from her downward point of view of what is basically her life. I love both pictures this week.
Marina's on top, mine on bottom:

Anxiety.

Only one more day until I can finally have time to breathe again.
And a week until I get to leave this beat-up city for a couple of days. I can't wait.

Oh man, oh man, oh man.

I figured I would post some pictures of the "revenge" I was supposed to be receiving last night. I actually found this all extremely funny. And it only took me about 15 minutes to clean up. Not too bad. But thanks, whoever, for making my morning laugh.






Oh, and they also left behind little piece of evidence...

Perfection.

Team-up Thursday: Eyes.

I thought this week's theme was going to be a piece of cake, until yet again I realized that one week is not enough time for me to do what I want. Especially this week, and next week as well, because I am as busy as any 16 year old my age can be. And I suppose that's what I get for signing myself up for about a billion different things. But that's a whole different story and a whole other blog post.

But Marina did an amazing job this week, I love her picture! Her's on top, mine on bottom.

And the truth is

I miss you.

No matter how hard I try not to. Whether I want to or not, this feeling of loneliness won't go away. And after trying so relentlessly for so many times to convince myself I'm better off without you, I still have yet to. I'm pathetic, I know. Dense, that as well. But feelings are so much more than words said. And my feelings have yet to fade away, or feel any kind of hatred. And believe me, it is definitely not by choice.

"You can't miss what you forget."
And believe me, I'm trying so hard for you to be nothing but an forgotten reminiscence.