Do you care if I don't know what to say?

Will you sleep tonight, or will you think of me?
Will I shake this off, pretend it's all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me?
There is...

Sometimes I wonder if liking someone is ever worth it. I feel like in the end, you're left this exaggerated feeling that it was all just a waste. But I think that when I finally look past the black & blue, I can always convince myself that the best feelings can come from that one person. The feeling of entire safety in their arms. The sweet satisfaction of butterflies in your stomach at just the sound of their name. The way you feel completely hypnotized whenever you're in their presence. The simple comfort of knowing that anyone could possibly feel that same exact way about you, and who you are. I believe it's the most understandable reason anyone could believe that you're close to feeling perfection. And they're all some of the most captivating emotions anyone could ever feel. Though sometimes, the worst kind of pain can reappear when it's over. And you have to brace yourself for an ending, because nothing lasts forever. It's probably just the selfish & pessimistic thinking of mine, but sometimes I need to keep my mind at a sense of reality. Because I'm one to get tangled up in my imagination and lose the realistic points in life. And as of right now, I can't help but wonder if you care about me half as much as I care for you. I'm probably making myself hurt for a hopeless nothing, but how could I know differently? There has been no evidence for you to prove otherwise. And I know I'm being selfish, but when I feel like this, it is so completely necessary.