Change.

So lately I've been truly contemplating if people can really change. Not just feelings-wise, because I know that is definitely possible. But I feel like I am always hearing songs on the radio about people singing about how they want to change themselves, and I find myself always wishing to change myself or someone else... but why do we all say things, then don't ever follow through? Or even think of following through. Maybe it's just the way human beings are instinctively. By saying things they don't really mean, or just being hypocritical in a way. But what I really want to know is if as a person... is it truly possible for someone to change themselves? I really would like to think so. Because I believe that I could change myself, if it were for the better. I mean, I've done it before for the worst.. so I don't understand why I feel like people are so incapable of changing for the good? I wish this could be true.

I've been thinking this lately due to personal problems. I feel like I should be able to trust someone very very much.. so why don't I? Why am I letting what people tell me change the way I feel, and change my perspective of him so that I don't trust this person as much? Can things in the past change once you've made a huge decision in your life? I would say yes. But that's just me, and it could be my female and deep viewpoint of things. Maybe from the male mind, this is all for fun, and maybe this isn't real. But I would absolutely hate to think that, and have it end up not being true. But then again, maybe what other people are telling me isn't accurate either? I think what I need to do is trust my first instinct and trust whomever I think I should. Because from what I can comprehend in my mind, is that I shouldn't have any reason to worry about anything. & I keep rambling because all these agitated thoughts keep crossing me and I don't know how to understand them. But I guess life is all about taking chances. Chances that turn into risks. That eventually change people, for either the beautiful, or the ugly.

This might result for the worst. This might result for the best. But I'm crossing my fingers that it's for the best, and my heart truly believes this as well. The worst thing that could happen is that I get hurt terribly again, but hey... that's how you learn. Right?