Confusion is so hard to spell with a K..

Life (As defined on dictionary.com): a corresponding state, existence, or principle of existence conceived of as belonging to the soul

If only it could be that easy. I'm so unexperienced with these new feelings that I'm feeling. I'm regret-less, selfish, and satisfied. I feel as though I did nothing wrong, except for what I thought was best. And that really wasn't wrong, just unpleasant to other people. Others would beg to differ. And I understand your side. But the thing I don't appreciate is the fact that people are going to start unnecessary things, and say unnecessary words. I am human too, believe it or not. The Kati that everybody knows would like to start her own life sooner or later, and doesn't always want to be around to please you. I hurt and feel emotions as well. & I haven't changed. I never did. So please don't encourage those thoughts. But what I'm here to clear up is that my feelings changed. Which I think is completely reasonable for someone my age. If you can't handle that, then that's your problem. But you want nothing to do with me anymore? That makes me sad that you aren't flexible. SO sad. I bend and twist to understand everything everyone has to say, and support them. But I make one decision and I feel as though everyone I thought promised me they would never turn on me... did.

And that brings me back to my introduction... life. This is it. You only get one. No, there isn't a utopia after I die for me to go to, and look back happily on all the regrets I made in life and say an "I'm sorry" and have everything be okay. That's not how it works. After you're done, you're done. Whether this is your opinion or not, I don't care. I may sound cruel and uncaring, but I'm not; just frustrated. Frustrated that I can't think the way other people do, and I would apologize for that, but I don't think I should. You can only say "I'm sorry" so many times before those two words start to mean nothing, and are just a waste of breath.

I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired. And that's what I was, and what I currently am: sick and tired.
& I plan to change this. And fast.