I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day; It was cold, and rainy. The perfect weather. My favorite band is getting back together to perform in March, after not performing together for almost 10 years. The perfect news. I have an orchestra concert tonight that I know will go just fine, and I'm playing my first legit symphony in it. The perfect accomplishment.
But I'm torn. I have a huuuuge decision to make, and soon. I know there will be some consequences, and that some people just won't understand. I also know that some people will just think I was stupid, and that they saw it coming. Others will probably never talk to me again, or call me nasty and unnecessary names. And of course there will be the ones that WILL understand, and will support me and my decisions. But the fact of the matter is, that I'm only a teenage girl. Feelings come and go, and some come uncalled. I can't control myself sometimes, and I hate myself for it. But I need to do what needs to be done.. although it may not be for a while. Just because I need time to think it out.
I just hope that in the end I will make the right decision. I'm not willing to make another mistake that I'll regret.
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