Song Lyrics that can relate to my life right now:
"Do you love me enough to let me go?
To let me follow through
To let me fall from you, my love
Do you love me enough to let me go?"
"You gave me strength and helped me grow
And now it's time to be on my own
I hope you know this was difficult.
A part of you is a part of me
And will always be
So hold your head high
It's so hard to say goodbye
I just have to take this chance
I hope you understand"
"I can be your favorite blue jeans with the holes in the knees in the bottom of the top drawer
I can be a little beauty queen
Just a little out of reach and the girl living next door
I'll be your angel giving up her wings if that's what you need
I'd give everything to be your anything
To be your anything."....
As you can see, this last week has been like an emotional roller coaster ride, although it's probably only half way over. I haven't felt so many emotions in such a short amount of time (like this) in a while; I like it. I've made some difficult decisions, decided who I want to keep in my life and who I don't, and gotten closer to people that I've wanted to all along, but couldn't. And for the most part, I'm happy. I'm happy with the path I took after life gave me one of the most confusing obstacle courses I could have thought of for being this young. Of course, I'm still upset that I had to hurt people along the way, all due to my selfishness. But sometimes that's all you have to be in order to get by; selfish. And of course, I'm upset by the thought of hate being so popular between people, and so easy for people to do. But it's alright. I have my best friends by my side, and I'm content with who this will make me. "Life is like a story written in permanent marker; you can't erase it, you just have to keep going."
All in all, no matter what has happened recently: I am happy. And I don't regret a single thing.
katiii. ive been reading your blog for a while. im really glad that you were able to be happy after making the decision. that's all that will ever matter. i am amazed at how you can take your thoughts, and turn them into beautiful words. you inspire me! :)
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